haiz..im confused...wads happening to me?? why..why do i keepin stoning!! ahhh...how i wish i hav the power to noe what i feel, think and wan...instead of staring into the space and make him worry if im ok...haiz...dunno since wen i started thinkin if i really suit him...i m really happy being wit him but somehow there is a problem between us.. the problem seems simple yet difficult for me to solve...i m afrid...afrid to mian dui.. i jus too useless le.. at the same time i m also afrid to shi qu...everytime seems to end up makin him sad..i really hope i m the one who is sad instead...now i will think alot...think if he will be happier if i m not around?? haiz...i hate myself for comparing...n the worst thing is i din realise...why cant i be mre sensitive...zzz...i promise tat anything mus tell him de...he did tat...but somehow wen he ask me wads on my mind, no words seems to come out of my mouth...i really bu shi gu yi tat don sae out de...but...hai dunno y..sometimes really don hav thing on mind... haaaiiizzzz...empty mind?? n lastly dunno y i jus cant defy my parents n go home abit later..haiz...zzz...ahhh..sorry...i m kai xin wit u!!really hope u can kai xin jiu too...don wish to let go..hmm...