time really files.
its 4th of may already.
went for the appointment.
*sigh*
my heart is really aching.
i know i do not have a choice,
and i've accepted it.
but..
it is really difficult for me to not feel upset.
i really do not know how to let this helpless feeling disappear.
cried till my eyes are really sore :(

cant bear to give up everything.
but i've have to let go.
:'(

-really hope that it is just a dream-