super dreadful week .
wed : java written test(today)
thurs : 6th battle
friday: eaipj, java assignment and eci presentation

have been trying my best for everything.
but nothing seemed to go right.
i still cant convince myself that health is my first priority and that i shlould not feel sad as long as i gave in my best/put in my best effort.

was really depressed after today's java test.
out of 100 marks, almost 80 marks flew away.
i'm only sure of my remaining 20 marks :(
thus, i've come to a conclusion that i will definately fail for this test.
to add on,i'm really scared to face this friday's presentation as i might be marked down by mr mah.
really want to do and help on the assignment..but i'm just totally lost.
felt so helpless and useless.

i really did try to put in my best for everything,
thinking that i can handle and overcome them despite the fact that i'm a cancer patient.
however, my body still affects me in a way :(
i still have to put my projects aside and turn up for treatment and check ups,
not able to help and lighten lao gong (shu qi)'s workload :((

tmr will be my 6th battle..
i'm really phobia from my last experience.
got the urge to not turn up for it but i know that i do not have the choice..



on the verge of breaking down :'(