LUNG INFECTION :(

i've been admitted to SGH on Monday(25/10) night due to high fever.
went to my family doctor and he referred me to SGH's A&E
he feared that i got infection due to my low immunity.
i got warded on that day and had my stay here for a week now.
took many tests/ scans/ x-ray and also medications.
(super lots of blood tests! i think i loss tons of litres of blood >.<)

i also felt breathless for the first few days of my stay.
and i was on oxygen.
the feeling was really terrible :(
i'm really really phobia of needles . my veins are really small and the nurses and doctor will have to
poke many many times before being able to take my blood T.T
it was really painful. i've blue blacks all over.
so helpless :((
initially, the blood tests and x-ray result could not show what happened to me so i took a CT scan.
and my doctor verified that i've got lung infection.
the next test i did was a lung test, inserting a tube into my mouth all the way to my lungs
to see what the virus is.
(lucky it was done when i was asleep! if not i sure cannot take the scene)
and my doctor analyzed that there is phlegm in my lungs,
but they have given me medication on virus, bacteria and more to counter them.
[got 10 tablets to take everytime , cough syrup too =( ]
thank god my fever went off and i do not need to be on oxygen anymore on friday :D
but my 11th battle was delayed again.
cant get to finish my chemo on daddy's birthday(11/11) as planned.
awww :(
i really really wanna go home badly.
yes so badly
that everyday the first question i'll ask my doctor will be " can i go home today/ when can i go home?"
even the nurses here also know that too!
(my doctor told them =x)
i've been transfered to isolation ward on thursday night after knowing my infection.
somehow, the isolation ward look like hotel to me!
i've took lots of pictures! shall upload when i got home .hehes :)
the toilet is super nice and the tv is super big!
i still asked the nurse if the tv is real =x
and i'm elated when they say it is and i can just switch on to any channels i like.
my previous ward has tv too but it cannot be turned on!
(fake TV! for display only =X)
told my doctor about my thoughts of here similar to a hotel.
but she told me " it should be high-class prison instead!"
it was true indeed.
as i'm only allowed to have 4 same visitors to visit me :(
no other friends can come over.
T.T
thats why i'm really bored.
(till i walked around the room for 10 rounds hourly just to "stroll" >.<)
heng still got laptop to use.
sigh~ please let me go home soon.
*prays*
ok , enough on my rantings.

on a happier note,
i'm really glad to have shuqi(lao gong), shu kee, shawn(korkor), chicken, liting, yun dear, jie mei, khai vern, yue mu, joanne jiejie , jacjac, lfy, bernice jiejie, su yi, hanyun(hanhan) ,hui yi and her cute sister to come visit me!
thank you for all the gifts which really cheered me up alot ! :D
and also to my dearest daddy, mummy, grandparents,  sisters, jiujiu and shu shu for coming to keep me accompany and also taking care of me.
sorry to keep you all mad worried .

Lastly,
to all my dear friends who wished and supported me through tweets, facebook and sms,
i'm really touched and got stronger , having more motivation not to give up and to fight through.
Thank you for all your concerns!
i'm really fortunate to have all of you around.
Hearts everyone lots (Y)

PS:  i've  never asked or want something so badly in my past 19 years of life.
all i have in my thoughts daily, is just to lead a simple life with everyone i love.
however, i really earned to have my health back.
so badly and DESPERATELY.
dear god, would you grant my wish?
i really did try to face and endure everything without feeling unjust.

i just want to get well and not be a burden anymore.
jia you mic.

-xie xie shawn(korkor) for the i touch

love it lots : D-