Tears Flowing Down

although i've completed my battles, i restricted myself to be too happy over it

as i know that i will not be able to take it if anything bad happens again.
i'm really in doubt/fear deep down.
:(
thoughts on whether my nightmare is officially over,
and if i can regain and lead my life how it used to be
strikes me.
i'm really afraid that the fact of me overcoming everything is a dream.
has all the bad things really gone far far away from me?
please don't come and look for me again.
please be over.
T.T
filled with insecurity.
failed to be strong.
i wanna live my life to the fullest,
with eveyone who i love alot .
but..can i  ?
recently, i'm feeling really lonely.
cant seem to voice out my thoughts to anyone but myself.
overwhlemed with emotions.

i need you.
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