For a moment,
i really need a place to rant.
Thus, i'm back to my "dead" space.
Having a really heavy heart now.
as much as i'm unwilling to, i feel really depressed.
Hope is always within me throughout the years, despite getting hurt each time.
i've tried my best to improve on the relationship.
believing that things will get better if i try harder.
However for now, i'm defeated.
My hopes have vanished.
it takes two hands to clap.
so how can things be/get better if i'm the only one putting in effort?
sometimes i really wish that i have a stronger character.
so that, i am able to be the same as them, not getting affected by the situations/things between us.
heart in pain :'(